The Dangers of Autopilot
Why am I going to work?
The obvious answer came to mind: we need the money. Then I thought about it… “That can’t be true. I’m a graduate student. I don’t really make money. So that’s not it.” Back to the question, why am I going to work? “To finish my PhD. Aha, got it! Wait, why do I want to finish my PhD?”
And there it was, the anxiety provoking question that has entered my mind a thousand times. Do I even want to finish my PhD?!
There is a point, I think, to me sharing this rambling train of thought…
All too often I have found myself on autopilot, going through my days without thinking about why I might be doing what I am doing. To me it really highlights how important it is to have a plan, to have a purpose, and to continuously reflect on that purpose. I have to ask myself:
1) Does what I am doing today get me closer to reaching my goal?
2) What life value do my actions today serve?
3) Is my plan/goal still in line with my life values or is it time to make a change?
Continuously asking these questions serves to help me stay focused or refocus. It also helps me put up with the parts of work that I dislike (e.g., paperwork… I hate paperwork). Every job is going to have parts that I dislike, but if I have clear purpose as to why things need to be done, the parts I don’t like can be a lot easier to tolerate.
I was able to answer the above questions for myself.
Going into work to do paperwork puts me closer to finishing my PhD. I want to finish my PhD because I believe the training I am getting is valuable and will help me in my ultimate goal of being a meaningful contributor to my community through my work as a psychologist. Working as a psychologist is going to be a stepping-stone for me to find bigger ways to be of service to my community.
With these thoughts firmly rooted in my mind, I can focus, with contentment, in the present moment, even though its doing paper work because I have a purpose for my actions.
So, the next time you find yourself on autopilot, I wonder what would happen if you took a moment to ask yourself those same questions? Are you on target? Is it time to make a change? How will you know unless you look?